'Love's not a because,it's a no matter what.'
- Jodi Picoult, Second Glance.
i'm sick of feeling this way.sick and tired of hoping and realizing that it's not going to work out the way i wanted it to work out,realizing that i failed in another aspect all over again,thinking that there's something fatally wrong and not knowing what it is and not being able to fix it,realizing that i'm losing control of my sanity and not being able to get it back,realizing that i can't be alone in a room because i'd just think wild thoughts.
i need to rant and get this off my chest.
if you thought everything was going to be picture perfect and so goddamn bloody easy,then i'm sorry you thought wrong.nobody ever said it was easy,and if you thought that way,then i think you've been watching too many chick flicks.the fact that you aren't even willing to sacrifice to make things work,show how cowardly you are and how easily promises just spill out of your mouth.you're a fucking liar and promises come too easily to you.if you don't want it,then screw it.don't keep putting up pretenses and thinking that if you wanted it again,i'd be here waiting,because it won't happen that way.you threw it all away,don't expect me to stay here with all that you left behind and bloody wait.
done.one week left.
